Red Letter Day (How Even Experienced FPIES Parents Screw Up)

I feel sick to my stomach right now.

I had a post all ready to go for this morning, but then this happened and now it’s all I can think about.

Yesterday I wanted to finally take the time to try and make quinoa in a way I would like it.

I had some safe nuggets all ready for Zac, so I didn’t need to worry about making more for him (for once) so I cooked up some quinoa for me using beef broth and salt.

I ate about half of it, and it was better. The rest I kept handy for whatever I came up with to try for dinner for me.

In all the hubbub of getting dinner on the table, though, Jed ate all the rest of Zac’s safe quinoa nuggets and I was left with nothing to feed him. (He had eaten the last cooked carrots at lunch and I hadn’t gotten any more scrubbed, peeled, rinsed, chopped and steamed by the time dinner came).

Without even thinking, without even a seconds hesitation, I scooped out some quinoa into a bowl and fed it to him.

I can only assume my brain went on a short vacation last night.

The worst part? He ate about 1/2 a cup of it for dinner…AND IT DIDN’T DAWN ON ME THAT I HAD FED HIM BEEF BROTH UNTIL I CAME SCREAMING OUT OF BED THIS MORNING!!!

Something must have been working in my unconscious, dream state mind, because I flew awake in a panic.

But in my awake hours, it never entered my mind.

<bad words bad words very very bad words>

Then, while still reeling from that, Darrel and I looked up from our carrot prepping to see Jed sweetly, generously PUTTING STRAIGHT CORN ON ZAC’S HIGH CHAIR TRAY!!!!

OMIGOD OMIGOD OMIGOD OMIGOD!!!!

We raced into action, of course, getting the corn away and snatching the tray away and otherwise scaring the kids half to death. Darrel is in there right now giving the kids scrubby showers to get any remaining residue off them, and I will spend the next hour scrubbing everything the corn touched.

(And why, you may ask, did we have corn out? Because Jed loves corn and he’s never tried to give it to his brother before and it’s hard enough to make sure my picky toddler will eat so when he screams to eat corn I give it to him. Not any more. Corn is banned, even if it makes Jed wail in abject misery.)

We don’t know if Zac ate the corn.

But who are we kidding? He freaking ate the corn this morning. He’s too interested in food to have NOT eaten it.

So we have officially screwed up our carrot trial – that was going so well – with not one, not two, but THREE stupid accidental ingestions today.

I think I’m going to throw up.

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Please say I’m not the only one that has done or had something SO STUPID happen to them regarding food trials and feeding their FPIES babes?!